Turn back in time...

..I just browsed my blog, went back in time. It's really interesting. I cannot believe I wrote all these things :). It's kinda sweet to be honest! Some things made me laugh, some things were like as if some one warmed my heart, and some also made me cry. I am listening to Gianna Nannini now, Notti senza Cuore. It's the song I was listening to all the time, after Snoopy died. I was laying in my Love's bed, listening to it all the time , crying. I went back and saw how the love between my Hunk and me developed, what bothered and touched me in the last year. And I have also seen myself changing!
I used to write much more about tennis for instance! Like I posted interviews and so on. Now I am only dealing with the results! Buh! Besides- Roger faces Rafa Nadal in the AO finals and Serena slaughtered Dinara and is champ again!
Watched Bayern vs. HSV yesterday. And guess who DID NOT win??? FCB FCB FCB muhahaha. Maybe they aren't as bad as Internazionale, but I still hate them guys.

Anyways, this were some tiny pieces of my reflections about the last year!
Stay tunned ;)

Incredible..incredible me ;-)

Won all three games. Amazing stuff , he he. My boi was so angry. He's just like me. Every defeat is as if the world's on the verge of collapsing.
Some people think we are sort of austere and too serious, but I don't really think so.
Today's lotto jackpot in Germany? 35 mln. Euros. And guess who filled out a few lottery tickets? My Hunk, a friend of ours and me. I am so curious and a bit excited. Even though it's not the first time I am plying lottery, and not the first time I'd have only one or two right numbers, I still do have much hope. Why not?! Last year it was like- the jackpot was very close to this year's one. I filled out one whole ticket. But so much has changed since than. Maybe this helps?! :)

Listening to Tracy Chapman.
I love her. Her voice is like a warm sunny ray of hope.
The more Tracy, the better!



I should start revising for rethorics and communication. I want a straight A!
( I am nuts!) .
Loads of Love, Soncek

Twice..in a row

Bow deeeeeep, I won twice :P
I LOVE DOMINATION :D

Last call....

In one week's time I am done with my exams (at least those not postponed). I am so happy. My Hunk's been waiting with dinner for me. Now I am full, and heading for yet another game of Domination ( play only when having strong nerves AND when you love being at war!).

I am out!

I have lost control.. one of the last exams this semester ahead

It seems as though my life's been ruled by University - lately. I kinda hate that. It's some sort of imprisonment. I hate being under pressure- not because I can't cope with it, but because it's annoying. It's unneccessary. I won't achieve neither better nor worse results when feeling someone's grip around my throat. It already sucks to see how my bf's struggling with his studies. It also affects me.

Today I got one paper back- got an A. This motivates me to proceed within my very own path, I have personally chosen. It is as good as always good to resist to go with the others. I have made a lot of weird decisions this fall and winter. Some people turned their backs to me, but I still know, that I did well. On both- a scholastic and personal level. When there are some, who try to force you to chose between two people, it is a natural thing for me, to make the ONE AND ONLY CHOICE- the right one! No one's allowed to treat me like that. Imagine your flatmate telling you not to kiss around in her presence! At first I tried to understand- okay she is single, must be annoying. But then I recalled an older experience of my own- I never told any of my friends, when I was single, to stop doing it! And secondly- come on, it's also my flat. These are some of the examples I can give you. Personally I think we are being forced by life to make difficult decisions. Why can't that be enough?!

okay after yet another journey into my heart I am leaving. I wanna revise a bit and sit the exam. Wish me all luck, I will need it :P

xoxo

Note to myself: Anger not good for passing exams!

M'kay- I do not hate university, on the contrary- I love it. I love studying, and I may transfer the pessimistic feelings I am having at the moment into a far better mood. That is. I will sit this exam, and pass it. This is my goal.
Piece of cake!

I hate University. I really do hate it!!!!!

Fourth exam to sit tomorrow, and I am still revising, and I am still not wiser, really! I had to postpone my fifth one ( I was supposed to sit tomorrow as well), since I am not able to make it. Great, really- now it's three exams in March. I could hit the roof!

Back to trops, round and stock characters, traits, figural perspective * and stuff like that.

How annoying!!!


* = termini from literature. I don't need it to save the world. But university needs it, to add more unneccessary trash into my tiny mind.

Coooooking (:

Let me tell you one thing :
I will never learn how to cook!

Hmmm... found one more...

I know this question won't solve any of this world's problems. But it'll enrich my world at least ;)

Back to blonde?!

I have been flirting with a blond hairdo for a longer time. As some of you recall- I was blonde one year ago. I liked it. It was a bit unusual, but still nice. I felt a bit different.

Take a look :


Somehow I'd like to do it one more time. Ahhhh help me!

Jihaaaaaa, third done, but how well?!

Sat the third exam. Was hard even tough. Believe me, I was totally exhausted afterwards. I had to take a nap. Translating and interpreting is damn difficult. Don't underestimate interpretors and translators, they have a damn hard job to do!
I am still trying to figure out, how to tell my flatmate and friend, that I intend to move out. I like asking people about their opinions. Most of them told me, just to tell her and speak 2 her frankly. I do not want to lose a friend, and even though we went thru really difficult times, I like her somehow.

I am out now. I am tired. And I have to revise for Politics and Literature.
Piece of cake ;)

Watch out, it's exams time!

Yesterday I passed my second exam (of 11). It was an oral one. In Italian. All in all ( ital. insomma) it was really a tough one. But I managed it, as good as it gets. Now, that I got one straight A ( Eins in German, Szóstka in Polish), I am cool about the rest. My goal's always to have at least one straight A :P. I have a comfortable feeling when writing the next ones.
Tomorrow I am facing the toughest of all- Translation with Grammar . Translation is something, seemingly very easy- but believe me, it is damn hard. I have realized it throughout this term. Worst above is, you have to declare yourself, whether you chose American or British English. I have always rooted for BE, but I noticed all these Perez Hilton's, CNN , MTV and others have a stern grip on my language skills. Forget BE they taught you at school :). I am really curious however, about the test. On Tuesday I am sitting two exams- Politics ( Analysis of the Problems Afghanistan's facing) and Literature and Culture ( I hate that subject. I hate poems, I hate poetry, I hate analyzing it!). And Thursday Italian (Essay writing and reading and listening comprehension). Than I have Didactics, and I postponed the rest til March. Norwegian, History of the Italian Language and (maybe) Italian Literature ( subject I absolutely LOATHE).

Okay, enough da parlare a cose scholastiche. I may revise some more vocabulary for Translation, read some articles and go out for a bit (some old mate of my Hunk's in town, so we are joining our two other friends..).
Xoxo

Talking bout a revolution....

Did I even post it? I can't recall it! I may do this now, nevertheless. In my opinion, this song is simply unique and a masterpiece! I love Tracy Chapman. The song is called "Talking 'bout a revolution".



Somehow I have the impression, I have already shared it.
Who cares ;)

Back to italiano! Prontamente!

I have made it!

Paper is written! Paper is written!

I have made it!
Now I just hope, he accepts it,
one day after the deadline.

Set your prayers for my poor soul.
I am really begging you folks! ;)

Anyways, since now I am done with one thing, I can start with the second one. Tomorrow I am facing the horrific thing, which is called "oral exam". It will be held in Italian, by the way! ( Please set even some more prayers for me ). Currently I am writing down useful expressions, I will have- a thing I hate doing and am trying to avoid all the time- to learn them by heart. But if you want to achieve something , you have to work for it, I guess ;).
Honestly, it is not as bad though- I am having the best company possible, for some productive studying ;)
I love you !!!!!

Dammit!

I really hate studying at the moment! I really do hate it!
I am still writing my paper, and there is no end in sight. I should have been through .
Now I gotta drop classes, so I can finish it indeed. I am still a hopeless case!
Marat Safin's through! He played himself into round three.
He'll be facing Roger Federer though.. What a f....


I just want this month to end. Really!

Aussie Open....

People you know, I am fanatic when it comes to....
....Tennis (male) - especially bout Marat Safin.
He is my hero.
He is the best.
He simply is the best!
I know....
I do write this every time a Grand Slam's on his way!
But I can't help it!
I love his attitude, and pssst-
his looks are- nearly perfect (of course not as erfect as my Hunks' ;).
I am also a fan of Djokovic. He kicks ass ;)
Definately!

Anyways. Siamo already alle round two.
And this are the most interesting line-ups :

Baghdathis v. Soderling
Djokovic v. Chardy
Del Potro v. Mayer
Safin v. Garcia- Lopez

From A to Z....

Today is Barack Obama's big day. Today he takes the oath to his office. The long awaited day of his Inaugural Address. I am really looking very much forward to it!!!!!! It is due to start around 17 CET or am I wrong?! The biggest shiz about it is firstly that I have classes at 6 pm and I do have to finish my paper - this time really! Dammit....

On the other hand- this.

The world as it is.

The Devil came on Horseback...

Spent the weekend in a more or less wonderful manor. Saturday we were like hanging around a bit at home, doing some domestic stuff (it can be so great, when you actually do it with the One you love). In the evening, there was some sort of offical feast at my Hunk's Corporation, where I and the girlfriend of another member (the guy happens to be the childhood friend of my Love) helped out a bit. The funny thing about his girlfriend is, that we do know the same people! It's such a small world :). We didn't have that much to do, so we mostly let the evening pass by chatting. The evening was eked by my Lurve. Since my parents tend to popp in here from time to time, that's albeit all I can write about it ;).

Sunday was spent at my hunk's parents' house. On the way there we argued though. I guess I am starting to lose nerves, since I tend to misbehave a lot lately. But before getting on the train we cleared it. Being there we ran through every single possible game- starting with Halli Galli (his bro tormented my hand terribly!!!!), Domino (I am getting good innit!) and a game, whose name I have actually forgotten (very close to Tabu, but with more features)- which we played in pairs, and won ;-).

Than watching a Serbian Soap we fell asleep, so we were forced to stay there til today. Unfortunately we couldn't fall asleep til 2:30 am! So we zapped ourselves through a couple of programmes. One was called "The Devil came on Horseback" and should be watched BY EACH ONE OF US! It was a documentary about an American Soldier who took part in the so-called peace mission in Sudan (we all know how it ended). He was the one, who actually alerted the world with his shocking photographs. He really fought a crucial fight with politics, the world's policy and some irritating idiots, who called him a liar. He founded various organisations and returned to Africa ( e.g Chad- boarder to Western-Darfur) and also tried to pictured how the Ruandese found back into live after their shocking genocide. I guess being served with images as these above, you basically can't really outline one. All the same,my tears just wouldn't stop running, when they aired an interview the protagonist of the documentary ( Brian Steidle) held an interview with a Refugee, living in a camp in Chad. Even now, writing this I have again tears in my eyes. It just broke my heart, seeing this person, that lost EVERYTHING, telling what happened to him and his family.It was not the story, but his face, his mimic, the expression. How he tried to persuade himself, that the Americans would come and save the people there. You could see though, that even he didn't believe in his own words. At the end, there were tears running, very slowly- just as slowely as he moved and spoke, down his cheeks. At that very moment you must have managed to understand the tragedy of those people- they did not really survive. They were leading a silent, horrible agony inside their camp. They have lost not only their families, homes and hope- but also their own lives.
Watching this man speaking told me more than anything else that I had read or seen ever before about the genocide in Sudan.
All in all it's a documentary about the failure of US (and what hurts most- of the UN as well).
As stated above- One should watch it. And also visit this very site.

Back to us- we watched than three another documentaries- one very short about Romania, than some Historienschinken (history)- about the German Kaiserreich before and during WWI and last but not least one about Obama (after all he can't be missing!). I must honestly say, after seeing it, I had even more respect for that man. And I know, he won't prove me wrong.

In the issue, we fell asleep before three, and got up a bit before eight. I am slightly sleepy now. And angry. I have ordered a book about Pilates, and it still hasn't arrived. Essentially it should have one week ago. Now I should head back to my books. I still haven't finished my paper on Politics, and I have to hand it in by... tomorrow. It's only 3 more pages, but still. And I have to pay a visit to my bank in the meantime. So I guess, I'll be busy.

Loads of love! SoJa

On the verge...

.. I am on the verge of collpasing... I am on the verge of tears....
I am on the verge of leaving this mess behind and going anywhere far.
I just hate winter, or particularly that time of the year. It simply exhausts me.
I would like to do something else, and to to forget some people, of whom I thought they were my friends.

Three days ago I learned, two, whom I used to call friends, got on the wrong lane. They blame me for things that aren't even worth a penny. And they are doing this, talking behind my back. If there is anything I sincerely hate, it's that! The best part of all is however, the fact, that they- and now I am begging you for your attention : they broke with me- meaning- they dismissed me.
Things are getting more complicated though. We used to be a pack of 5-6 friends.
And the girl, I am living with, is one of them. Lately she's actually been standing up for me, which resultet her arguing with the other two as well. The bad feeling about the whole matter is even three times it's normal size, since I have planned to move out, and together with my Hunk. Now imagine - She got into the whole mess, defending me, and now I am gonna tell her "sorry, moving out. Was nice".

What a effin' big mess!
Solutions?!

Arghhhhh

Just entered my room (as you know, I also do have a flat here, but I spend most of the time in my Hub's corporation house), and I am more than angry. The friend, I am sharing that apartment with is quite chaotic, but what I stumbled upon is beyond words- plus my huge Godfather poster has a whole (it was laying on the floor)! It's a bit annoying, coz this obviously shows who keeps the flat clean. And honestly I am no one's char! Damn! Usually I am really cool bout such meaningless stuff, but sometimes the roof's on fire, to put it into the right words....you know?!

I have a huge amount of exams racing against me. If I cope with them, I should award myself. Anyways, my Love bought us some cigars for the exam'afterparty and furthermore my best friend's coming than all the "long" way from Bavaria.

I do not know what else to write?!
I am really longing for February, when there will be time for doing sports and taking care of oneself!
I feel pretty bad when doing nothing!

Keep it cool (:
Xoxo

Gwen Stefani gallery of pictures

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We all are Gaza......

It's not about charging or dicharging someone. It's about solidarity. Just bear in mind, how many people have already lost their lives! This is tragic and beyond words. Behind every death stands another - even bigger tragedy- the griefing family, friends. So the death toll is always higher than the numbers given !

I passed (: just 13 more to go (;

Hooooraaaaay! Just got the message, that I passed my first exam this term (the one I had in mid-decembre). Today I had a mock test, which was easier than I expected, so I feel pretty comfortable. I will have to however, postpone a few, since I can't possibly write 5 exams on one day. Sucks a bit, but that can't be helped..

Anyways, this is the shittiest time of the year, meaning I have to move my ass and study. I really have a lot to do in a very short period of time.
Back to my books!

Xxx Sonni

Feeling slightly homesick...

I have a horrible back pain again, my head slighly hurts and I am feeling dizzy. The perfect Saturday evening, y'all! Once you are in such a state you wish you were home! Therefore I just browsed a few pics from our first Poland-trip together. It was a lovely few days to be there! It felt so great to be home again. After all I love being in Poland, especially now, when I am beginning to understand what that country means to me.

Unfortunately time passes too quickly, when you enjoy it. And even though the weather was literally shitty, it was the perfect first trip together. I am so much looking forward to going there with my Love after the exams again.

Update: Now it's Sunday. We spent the evening playing Risk (alternative name : Domination). I hate that game, since I am always losing my temper !The thing is- I simply can't stand to loose. That is.
Righty right, I am off now- I need to study. I really need to, since exams are on its unevitable way ;-(.

Xoxo Soncek

Happy New Year!

I wish you all a very happy New Year. I do not really like that general kind of wishes. As for my part, they simply seem so much off-heart! As though the one who speaks them out, did not even think about them and what is even worse for me- as though the very person does not really mean it from his or her inner heart!
What can be said?








I can only tell you, that I was thinking about what happened in my life last year. I lost my dog
Snoopy, something I still hardly can't talk about, I saw strong relationships breaking- in every single matter. I was frustrated by people, who seemed like friends to me. I learned again, that not every family's bounds are as strong and supportive as they should be. On the other hand I met the love of my life. A person I thought- that couldn't exist. A person that changed my life. I watched my inner strength growing, as well as my conscience. I met so many wonderful people, and re-newed a great bunch of wonderful friendships. From my point of view, that was an extreme year indeed.

I wish this year was just as intensive in the amazing parts as last year, and less in negative experiences. But only less, since we also need them, unfortunately, to become the ones we are meant to be.

Without saying names, I can add, that a very close soul to me is going through very rough times at the moment. I know it hurts, and what is worse, I can't really help. But I do also know, it will make her stronger and later be of use.
A lot of love! Sonja